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I Have Loved the Stars

“I have loved the stars too fondly to be fearful of the night.”

– Sarah Williams, “The Old Astronomer to His Pupil”

gloaming

This moment happened on my deck tonight.  I’m grateful I got to witness it.  I was sitting still with a glass of wine and dinner in the oven. The first word that slipped into my mind was “gloaming.”  That’s the tiny sliver of time between sunset and night.

Star light, star bright,
first star I see tonight
I wish I may, I wish I might
I wish to have this wish tonight.
 

I’ve got this wish that I’ve been working on for a year.  In February, this blog will be one year old.  It feels like something I’ve wanted to do for a long time and I’m finally doing it.  Now I want to set some goals and own them.

Goal #1:  1000 Facebook followers

Terribly close on this one.  788 at last count.

Goal #2:  100,000 page views in a year

Striking distance on this one.  Last count was around 76,000.

So, I’m owning it.  Expressing my dreams has always felt like a risk, as if dreams must be pounced upon instead of worked on diligently.  But I can either focus on the stars or dwell on the darkness.

When you wish upon a star
Makes no difference who you are
Anything your heart desires
Will come to you
 

I’m nervous about this goal.  It’s time to make a plan.  When I think about the dream, I see the star in this picture–the thing that keeps me looking up.  When I think about actually getting there, I think about the river that’s in the picture, invisible in the dusk.  It’s the thing that changes the landscape through persistence, not sheer power.

My Stars

Virgo. And probably going to stay that way for a while.

Virgo.
And probably going to stay that way for a while

My girlfriends and I spent this rainy weekend in the mountains talking trash and drinking wine while someone else took care of our responsibilities.  That is my little black and twisted heart’s definition of HEAVEN.  At one point in the revelry, we were talking about nature, camping and orienteering and I mentioned wanting to know my constellations.  Just saying the word “constellation” brought back a story from college that made me snort a little pinot right up into my sinuses.  On a side note, that is really good for clearing out the pollen!

In my sophomore year, I dated a darling Southern gentleman.  He was a mature and worldly 24 yr old.  To me, he was an ADULT.  He owned a house, had a job that required a tie and wingtips, played golf and could buy beer whenever he felt like it without giggling.  Grown up stuff.  One Sunday afternoon, I was hanging out at his house–STUDYING, ahem–when three of his friends dropped by to watch a basketball game.  I wandered off to the bedroom to read my book so they could have some Testosterone Time.  Luckily, I left the door cracked.

During a commercial break, one of the guys picked up a GQ Magazine and flipped to the quiz:  “How Much Of a Ladies’ Man ARE YOU?”  These four guys started giving each other grief about who’s going to score the highest and before you know it, they’re writing out their answers and the basketball game had been forgotten.

The questions were pretty typical stuff like “How many sexual partners have you had?”  Their answers ranged from 4 (my boyfriend) to 6 to 10 to 100+ (which caused some coughs that sounded a lot like “bullshit!”).  But that guy WAS a major hound dog.  

All four of them are pretty much tied coming into the final question–“What are the labia minora?”

{{{crickets}}}

There’s some hemming.  And some hawing.  Mr. 100+ says, “I know what they ARE but I’m not going to say because y’all don’t know.”  My boyfriend pipes up, “I know what they are too!”  The other two chime in but it’s a standoff–no one wants to answer the question and reveal the answer to the others.  Or worse, reveal that he has no earthly idea.  

Finally, my boyfriend stammers, “It’s a constellation….right?”

And the others answered, “YES!”

If you don’t understand why this story is funny, Google it, but not while you are at work.