Number One

carlos asleep

M’boy when he was just a few months old. Nothing more peaceful than a sleeping baby.

All those years ago when I made my life list, Number One without any hesitation was “Be someone’s mother.”  I made that wish–“be a mom”–on every birthday candle, every stray eyelash and every shooting star for 10 years.  It took me a long time, but I’m so glad to get there.

So today was a good day.  

I hope yours was, too.  I know people who gritted their teeth through Mother’s Day this year because this was the first one without their mother, or the first one without their baby. Peace to you.  As my friend Tara at “I Might Need A Nap” said, “Monday is coming.”  

There are others out there who treasured every moment because it was their first Mother’s Day as a mother.  Peace to you as well.  Monday is coming for all of us and it will be filled with treasures and surprises.  

Whenever you ask my friend, Annelle, “How are you today?” she answers, “It’s the best day of my life.”  No matter what.  No matter the weather, the bank balance, the number of smiles or tears.  It’s the best day of her life.  And she’s right.  It really is the only one we have so what could be better?

Happy Monday.  I’m glad you’re here.  

14 thoughts on “Number One

  1. Michelle

    I was so hoping this would be my first Mother’s Day (I’m 39 weeks, 2 days pregnant).
    My husband says it still counts as my first. 🙂

  2. Susan Fliegel

    And please pray for those of us who made that same wish, only to face the fact that our arms, and hearts, would be forever empty. I never wanted anything more than to be a Mom, but G-d sometimes has other plans. Two early miscarriages, and I planned to adopt, only to be told I was too old at 30 to qualify for adoption through my state. Was turned down by religious organizations because I am Christian and my husband is Jewish. Applied for foreign adoption only drop the procedure when our finances tanked (my husband lost his company, then when he recovered I lost my own job and we had to change cities and states). Was ready to apply for being foster parents when my mother began to show signs of dementia. She ended up being my baby, and I was her caretaker for nine years of steadily increasing mental loss, until she didn’t even know who I was before she died. But I was honored to take care of her — she had adopted me after she suffered through seven premature births — boys who all died before living a single full day — and she loved me no matter what. So happy Mother’s Day, Mama. You made me want to be just like you.

    1. Baddest Mother Ever

      Susan, that is a beautiful expression of mothering. Thank you for telling your story. I wrote this because I was thinking about a friend whose baby was stillborn a few months ago. Mother’s Day can be painful for so many reasons and joyful for a variety of reasons, too. I guess my point in “Monday is coming” is to say that every day has its joys and challenges. It’s just so much easier to see them on a day set aside for mothers. Peace to you.

  3. Susan Lee

    Two emotions for me — visiting my mom, who had no idea it was Mother’s Day, and then coming home to prepare dinner for my friend who lost her mother recently, and my two lovely daughters and one son-in-law. Lots of wine helped! 🙂

  4. bdh63

    It is a hard day for a lot of people, it is good to acknowledge them. I was luck to have a fairly peaceful day where my kids made me smile.


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